As autumn settles in for good, I realize I’m exhausted.
Part
of this is because I just returned from a trip, and I leave again next weekend.
Looking over my calendar, I see these are my 11th and 12th
journeys this year, and two more biggies are scheduled before the holiday
frenzy sets in. By the time my wedding anniversary rolls along, I’m invariably out
of emotional fuel. Whose idea was it to marry right after New Year’s?
Along with a whole lot of travel, I’ve had other bumps in my
road this year; a few significant illnesses, my husband retired in May, then
started a new (and undiscussed) job of work the following Monday. My eldest son has torn at the fibers of my family, causing sleepless nights and stomach pains. My favorite
(and only) daughter moved away and I grieve the loss of near-daily contact with
her and my cute grandkids. I learned the meaning of Sandwich Generation as I
worry for her having a rough time settling in and health challenges of her own,
plus my mother who rode out a major hurricane at our place. I never aspired to
be peanut butter, but sandwiched I am.
Writing has taken off this year; I’ve published three whole
books and have several more in various stages of completion. Time-consuming, stressful,
and enjoyable, it’s on my mind even when I sleep. I’ve longed for a personal assistant
to take over the chores of advertising, website stuff, and other
writing-related tasks that are not much fun.
As I said, I go into Fall feeling depleted, which is less
than ideal since I live in the Pacific Northwest. I need all the emotional energy I can muster
to get through the upcoming long, gloomy, dreary, soul-sucking, endlessly
rainy, dark, chilly days ahead. This year, I’m running on fumes, and it’s only
early October.
But there is light on the horizon! I’m grateful to be at the ANWA Northwest Retreat as you read
this! It’s my third year going, and I’m counting on the same uplift I found in
the other years. The coming together of diverse, strong women, united in faith
and common interest is soul-filling. I soak up knowledge insights, and
information, but the best part of the Retreat is nurturing my bruised, tired
soul absorbs.
These are not ordinary women; they’re creatives, out to push
back the darkness of the world by writing uplifting, wholesome pieces that
inspire and uplift. They’re warm and accepting, no matter the level of writing we find ourselves,
and just being in their presence is exactly what I need right now. I know I’ll
come home re energized, buoyed up, strengthened and confident enough to step
forward with feet undragging.
I’m not done unpacking from the last trip yet, but I already
set aside a heap to take with me to the Retreat. I can’t wait!!
It was so great seeing you again! Rosario is a special fountain for us all! Love to you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that you were able to get away. The NW retreat is on my bucket list. Maybe next year!
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