by Terri Wagner
Hi! Remember me. In January I went back to school, and dropped everything...well, I did manage to post, but was it interesting? I'll leave that up to you. Yesterday, I took my last final and with a sigh of relief left student to go back to desperately seeking employment.
This is not a happy time in my life. And to come here at this time in my life hurt more than it would have when I was younger. Most people assume I am a retiree when I sub. That hurts too. Geez I thought I looked fairly young.
However, there is one thing I have to share. Nearly a year ago when this big bad awful terrible thing happened to me, Heavenly Father assured me He would walk this path with me. And He has. Every day, every depressed moment I have felt His hand of comfort and encouragement. I feel that He has set me on a path although I have no idea where I am going to end up much like Lehi must have felt at times.
Just yesterday when I subbed for the morning, the test was in the afternoon, I noticed a small note taped to the side of a computer in a discreet place that said "Don't worry so my child, I have a plan for you." The reference was Jeremiah. At first I confess I thought yea and Jeremiah did not have a great life (have you read it?) and of course the language was definitely not from the King James version. But then I realized the Lord was yet again sending me a message of comfort and encouragement.
I had finally set aside Plan A for my life. I had a glimmer of a Plan B but it was vague. And there He was yet again giving me comfort. I do feel more like Lehi these days than Nephi. When I was younger, I was going to the Nephi of my family, striding forth in adventure of all kinds with sufficient faith to make it through. Now I feel more Lehi or maybe Sariah, I am older, life is not that much of an adventure, I wanted to coast into retirement. Lehi had money, a family, probably like me a Plan A. And then the Lord changed it all. They wandered a long time before they reached the promised land.
So like Lehi and Sariah I headed off in to the wildness (not by obedience but by circumstance), I hope I find my promised land. I may not be as old as they are, but in the eyes of the world apparently I am older than I think I am! I am sooooooooooo grateful for the examples of older people in the Bible and BOM. Never thought I would be one!