by Terri Wagner
Here I am two weeks exactly from my last final to renew my teaching certificate. Still worried sick there will be no job out there once I have done this. Mostly I am miffed with myself. Do ya'll ever feel that way?
I started out in January with a promise to myself. One, I would not pin all my hopes on this situation; two, I would accept a C and move on; three, I would continue subbing. I only did number three. And I am very glad, because I am learning how to apply the principles I learn in school with the reality of subbing, which as you know, is mostly a babysitting venture. Sometimes I have been quite successful; others, not so much. One thought stays with me: These are Heavenly Father's best and brightest, what worked before will not work with them.
I have applied for several other jobs, but not one interview; so although I did not mean to pin my hopes on this, it seems the only door open at the moment. However, open it is.
As for number 2 that is why I am freaking out with two weeks left. Somehow, I have managed to pull an A in all three classes...no, don't congratulate me yet. I have two filmed projects, one final paper, one final and 5 blog posts yet to go. But instead of coasting because I have an A at the moment, I want to keep the A. And I am having a conversation with myself that goes something like this:
Just coast, you're safe! I WANT the As. Why, no one cares. I care! No you don't care, it's your ego. No, it's my pride. Either way it's a drag. But, but...and so on it goes. I'll resurface in two weeks with or without saving the As. Think I should coast?